all the days of my life the wedding album

ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE THE WEDDING ALBUM MOVIE

It was a common case of “wanting to be wanted,” but wanting celibacy for all of my ex-boyfriends? This is probably a little extreme. You know what they say about checking your Facebook account at work: “Don’t!” This work felt unforgiving in the midst of the emotions swirling in my stomach. I took a deep breath, turned off my Facebook page and tried to get back to the mound of email in my inbox.

I was missing him terribly as I read “Just Married,” on the back of their car in white paint.

All the usual self-pep-talk inside of me fell silent as I clicked through the images and sat alone with my thoughts. I truly do want him to be happy, but sitting at my desk on a Thursday afternoon with the sunlight streaming in the window like a blinding reality, I felt jealous and melancholy. I wouldn’t (or shouldn’t) expect anymore emails or instant messages from him as if his head was poking around the corner of my computer screen to see if I was still willing to reconsider, to maybe give it another go. I felt so sad to see that he had truly moved on.

ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE THE WEDDING ALBUM MOVIE

I tried to go through all the weird and awkward moments we shared instead of dwelling on all of the fantastic and romantic ones flooding into my imagination like a scenic movie trailer. I mentally went through all the reasons that I had told him I didn’t want to date him anymore. “Did I make the wrong choice?” I wondered inside as my heart sank to see him kiss the bride. There I was at work minding my own business, when in the feed of my homepage one photo after another kept coming up, album after album: “Rehearsal Dinner,” “Wedding,” “Honeymoon.” There’s nothing like looking through your ex-boyfriend’s wedding album on Facebook that can make you want to go buy a happy meal and take a long nap.

All the days of my life the wedding album